Good Thing I Am Busy

Yes...being busy and doing lots of things are indeed very beneficial though can be so tiring at times.
I don't have the time, mental capacity nor the feelings to even feel sad. You see, there have been lots of changes happening around me and they are really unsettling. Just like last night, I don't know if he was really serious but Sir Uly told me that he already resigned and that he was already accepted to work in a university. It was sad and would give me so much discomfort for aside from being a normal "fixture" there, one I am already used to seeing on a daily basis, he is also somewhat special to me. I mean special in a non-romantic way. I just like him, I am so fond of him, he is like an older brother. I just admire him a lot. Without him, nobody would "irritate" me anymore and act like a brat to me. I would surely miss him if what he told me were true. But just like what he said, "people come, people go." It was easy for him to say those words but to live and act upon them is another thing. And a harder one at that.
I guess, I have given too much of my heart to those people I did not intend to have any connection with in the first place. My only goal there when I applied a year ago was to work and work and save money and then go back to Manila. I did not expect that I would be this "attached" to them, that I could get this close. And now deep inside amid my being swamped, I am feeling this deep pang of sadness.
Yet, life goes on. And I must not lose the vision and mission I had with me when I started working there in the first place. I told you, to leave is even better than being left behind. And for these past few months, I have been like an "abandoned" child left alone to roam around streets I am not familiar with. But I have to stop acting like a pathetic child and be a stronger adult in times like this. This is not going to be easy but at least I know that Up There, I am still guided.
I will continue what I am doing now. I am already done with my lesson plans for the coming week.Technically, I am a week advanced and I intend to do things that way. I don't want to cram anymore specially that next year I am leaving. I am excited about it at the same time nervous. But I think it's high time that I learn to take care and tend to myself. I am already a big girl. It's time to "free" myself from my parents' wings.
Hah! Life is really, how should I say? Complicated? Not really. Let's say so constantly changing that it leaves you dumbfounded sometimes. But that's the way life is...What we can do is just learn to accept and embrace it as it goes.