Well...

Well, I am having my so-called "emo moments" now.

And when I say emo moments, meaning those times when you just want to cry and vent out all those pent-up emotions kept and preserved for so long inside you.

I had wanted to cry and thank God, I already did. But it just could not stop and would just happen at the slightest trigger.

People in my life come and go and the sad part is I have already learned to love them and given a part of me to them. They would always have a mark in my life for they became significant parts of it. Now they're gone, all I have is myself and my will to move on and just continue my own journey.

People come, people go. Easy for us to say but to experience it first hand is another thing. I am sad now but I have to be strong and not let my emotion rule over my rational thinking.

I guess, somehow I need to chill out and just enjoy the things life gives me as I go my way. Yes, to enjoy them but not to really bask and immerse myself in them. Life never told me to fixate myself to those things she has been giving me. She only said that I enjoy it and live each day I have. To love the people I have now and when they are gone, then go ahead have my emo moments but not for too long. For she still has lots of other things and people to give me.

This is a little bit how should I say,tougher but I really need to be. I still have lessons yet to learn about life. For a long time, I have looked at it in a very "Pollyannish" way that I forget that it is painful sometimes. And when the pain is there, it is quite difficult for me to cope up.

But I am learning my lessons. Indeed, I am. All I want to do is just enjoy my life and yes, be positive everyday. Thanking God for the blessings of another sunrise, another day for me. It may not be so pleasant but still, it is life. And I must, should and will embrace it as it is.

I am sad. Yes. But not for too long. Soon, I'll get over this feeling, this "post-childhood separation anxiety" I am experiencing. Life is too convoluted to be wasted. Ironically, it's being one is quite maddeningly amusing...(^^,)