It Hit Me Again

I feel bad. Until now. It is still about this having a boyfriend thing! My goodness! I think this is all crap! Utterly useless!

It all started I think when a friend of mine has started telling me about her lovelife. Then I felt this envy and then I tried again to work on and "fight" for the attention of that jerk. My goodness! That friend of mine, in fact almost all of my friends have kept on telling me to find myself a boyfriend and when I find an apple of my eye, they would tell me to keep things slowly. I am tired. I am tired of them telling and reminding me of this seemingly pathetic state that I am when in fact I am not. I am okay. If I look inside my heart, all I want to happen is just to continue this pace that I have now with my life, with my career, with everything. I was contented already, I in fact already planned to have my own version of "Eat, Pray and Love" when all of a sudden, those "well-wishers" I call my friends would remind me of my seemingly fast-ticking biological clock and subtly pressuring me to go find myself a partner. Then, when I go the fast lane, they would tell me stop! Where do I put myself now?

Maybe, I should tell them bluntly to keep off my lovelife and don't mind my emotions at all. I enjoy life as it is and I have many things to do. I don't need a boyfriend right now. I think I am not yet ready. God will give me the right person at the right time but please! The last thing that I need from them, well-wishers is to for them to keep on telling me that I need a man and just let me live my life as I do. Someday, they will receive a good news from me. So I guess, I better shut my mouth when it comes to my crushes and objects of affection and please, tell them honestly and bluntly when they have matchmaking ideas in mind to stop and just leave me alone. That's it. Leave me alone.