Friday, October 21, 2011

Disappointed With Myself

The title says it all. I am disappointed with myself. I am not feeling good about myself now. I am not even in the mood to write about what I did yesterday. I was just let's say really quite disappointing yesterday what with all my actions and my decisions.

I said to myself never to pass that way again but you know what? I passed there maybe a million times (okay, I am exaggerating already.) Then I even went inside for how many times. I made a complete idiot out of me craving for someone unworthy's attention.

How could I not use my lovely brain those times? How could I not be sensible specially when I like someone? I don't know. I just gave in to my irrational emotions and now look at what is happening to me. I feel this self-condemnation I want to slap myself and bang my head on the wall.

Well, those were my stupid, ungraceful moments. Past is past, I already inflicted the damage on myself so all I need to do is just dust myself off and move on. Move on and forget about those crazy, silly, shameful moments. Enough is enough. I will really move on.

I will just pray. Hah! I am ashamed to come to God but I don't have any choice but to do so because He is here and He knows. And I don't really know what is He going to say. Really. I am really embarrassed but still we need to talk.

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