A Prayer of Query

Dear Lord,

Lord, I am thinking right now. I am thinking about that girl who was raped and violently killed by those monsters. It was so hateful and so sad that even though I don't know her personally, I still feel this anger inside me for those good-for-nothing perpetrators and I feel sorry and pity for her family.

Lord, from what I heard and from what I have deduced, she was a christian. Or her family. Lord, probably her parents were also praying for her constantly for You to protect her. I don't know. There is also this idea inside my head that maybe the reason why she was so brave to go out on that wee hour of the morning was because she trusted You for Your protection. But then that violent and senseless thing happened to her that cost her her life.

Lord, I am sorry if I am thinking this way. I am sorry if I am having these ideas inside my head. I am also a girl. I have a sister too. Lord, I am just scared. I don't know. I cannot question You why did You allow such a thing happen. But I cannot help it. That incident has made me feel insecure. That I cannot trust You enough. I am sorry if I think and feel this way.

Lord, but this is not fair to You. It was the enemy's doing and yet You are the One being questioned. Lord, it has always been conventional wisdom not to go out that early yet she did. But still, was it the price that she had to pay for her moment of folly?

Lord, if she was a christian, she is in heaven now with You. Lord, I don't know what would become of her death to our society and to our justice system but still You are the One who knows everything. Lord, I will still trust in You and yes Lord, I will use more of the wisdom be it conventional or spiritual that You have given us. Lord, please pacify my heart and give it peace in this time of my confusion and queries. You know better than I. Better than we. Lord, I just pray for her family for You to comfort and love them specially during this time of their mourning.

The enemy is just trying to divert my attention again and make me feel insecure and question Your trustworthiness and faithfulness. It was of his doing, not Yours. You allowed it to happen for reasons only You know and could answer. Someday Lord, I pray for her family to be able to understand everything that happened. That they may still find meaning for her meaningless death.