Lost Friendship

I just feel sad about what happened between a supposedly "close" friend of mine and me.

We were supposed to be close, yes close, we have been close but then he changed.

You know what I feel? I feel used, I feel over-utilized by that person.

Or maybe I let him so.

It is just so sad that when everything came his way already, when he already has a good life and things are going well for him, he just dropped me just like that.

Who used to call me his bestfriend, who used to be there when I needed someone to talk to, who used to be there just for nothing is gone already.

Nada.Pffft!!!

Well, maybe he was only my friend for the season. Maybe he only had his allotted time. I am not going to do something about our friendship anymore if we had any. Maybe I gave too much and did too much expecting something in return that much.

I just feel sad. And angry. Angry with him for what he did and angry with myself for making a fool out of myself. Good thing, before we became so overly and inseparably close, things about him unraveled gradually revealing the real nature of his heart.

Now, I understand how his ex-girlfriend felt at the time. I am not his girlfriend but somehow, maybe I have this feeling of abandonment by him.

Well, I will just move on. And next time, carefully choose the people who I will become friends with. To give limits on things and think of relationships as business. That I should be careful as invest my resources so that in the end I will not be shortchanging myself.

I am thankful that I still have my real friends with me. That they are still here with me. I know I may be neglectful at times but I will do better. While I still have the chances. I will just invest on those who really deserve my investments.

Well, there were good times also. I will just remember those. But this is the end, that's it. I will just go on and move on. I will still meet friends as I journey in this life. I know. God will give me.