Unselfishness

I decided to not enroll this summer anymore.

I decided to just use my earned money to visit places and to connect with people.

People who have nothing to do with me.

People who I don't know.

And probably who need me and my time and my effort and my love.

I have been planning to go to CRIBS but because of some distractions and yes, lost of focus, I was not able to do it. My life these past few months has been just all about me, myself and I. I forgot that there are still indeed people who need people and maybe I am the one being needed here, not the needy.

Instead of paying for my tuition, I will just push through my plans to go to CRIBS come vacation time and probably visit the Home for the Aged. Just to give time to these people who need people.

Probably the reason why I have been feeling this discontentment, this lack of zest for life is because I have been overly into me that I am losing touch with reality which is not all about me.

God will work in my life. I know. Soon. I have been just a faithless and foolish fool all throughout this journey. I still have my parents, my mother and father to love. Especially my mom who all her life has not been appreciated. My siblings who actually need my care. And those who God put under my care.

I think about Ryan's parents. How they need to be given time. I feel something for them for I think they are a bit sad. All their children are living lives on their own, working far from them. I just feel sad for them. I don't want my mother to feel that way. Especially when she's alone in this house.

God, did You put those people within my circle so that I can reach out to them?