Dear Papa

Dear Papa, I am sorry for everything I did. For being rebellious at times and for disrespecting you in ways unimaginable. I am sorry for my disobedience, for my being biased towards mama. I am sorry if you ever felt that we love you less. I am also sorry for insulting you before. For looking down at your job. How foolish I was to think that way. The job that I condescendingly look down to is the same job that has provided food on our table, has given us a good house and community, has provided for us all through the years. You are not perfect. You have your flaws but those things do not give us any reason to become disrespectful towards you. Papa, I am sorry. Albeit my strong-willed personality, my obstinacy and hard-headedness, deep inside I am still a little girl who wants to have your approval. Who wants to be loved by you. Papa, I am sorry I cannot be like you. You know what? I met a guy who is just like you. He was initially not my type but probably the reason why I am holding on to him is because I want to fulfill your dreams to have a son like you through him. My brothers are not like you so maybe deep inside the recesses of my heart lies this desire to give you what you have always dreamed of. Realizing that if I could do it, if he were to become my husband, then you will have someone in the family whom you will have something in common with. Papa, I am sorry. I was not able to make it. I was not able to do it. Maybe because God, my Heavenly Father has a better and more beautiful plan for me. Yet, papa, inspite of this, I will still love you just as much. I by God's grace, will do my best to become a good, loving and obedient daughter. Though we fought terribly before, it does not mean that I love you less. It just made me feel guilty and more sorry than ever. Happy Father's Day tomorrow, Papa! May God always guide you and may He bless the works of your hands. May your life be anchored in Him always. I love you, papa. Take care. BEE