Realizations

I have realized many things today.

I have realized who really my friends are. Who really could accept me and understand me for who I am.

I am not perfect, I have issues also, I have my own struggles and sometimes I let the whole world know about it and worst, overdo it. It is me. It is really me. And sometimes, I don't have to change just to make others like me and please them.

I am just sad. About losing a friend. Yes, before I could confide in her but then there was judgment already. I didn't like that but then I found her sensible so I just let her "judge" me for who I seemed I was.

But she didn't know what's on my mind. No one really knows and I intend to keep it that way. If I have some issues, I just keep it to myself but it is actually not the right thing to do. Being honest is indeed important. And being open to correction is highly indispensable.

I hate it when I others throw judgment to others already when in fact, I am also guilty of the same crime most of the time. That part of me, I need God to help me deal it with.

I still need to be in tuned with my emotions, what ticks me off. I guess, I really should ask God to transform me and change the way I think, act and behave. And yes, I will carefully choose the people that I will let inside my inner circle even if it means being alone sometimes.

People just need to be accepted for who they are. Warts and all. It's good to know that I have a few who really do. I will not wait for others to love me and accept me. If they feel the other way around, then let them be. I will just be myself with some better and more positive modification.

From now on, if I don't have anything good to say about others even if it seemed true, I will just keep my mouth shut. I will just shut up. I will just keep quiet and do what is expected of me to do.

Relationships are important to me so I will try my best to choose and keep the best ones. Ones that will lift me up and edify me.