Clearing of the Heart

"The truth is our circumstances do not make us what we are. They merely reveal what we are. " -Nancy Leigh de Moss-

I am thinking right now. Maybe, this happened for a reason.God allowed me to be in this place because He is teaching me something. He showed me the kind of heart that I had. I may be speaking about Him, seemingly living my life for Him but in reality, no. I think I had been so vain, so callous with my actions and yes, acted like a temptress with some of the men in my life. The Lord showed me this problem that I have.

Lord, help me change myself. Help me to become the woman of noble character, the woman in Proverbs 31 and not be so caught up with this world's system. Lord, I know that I acted quite loosely with him that I did not give him time to pursue me. I was an impatient, desperate girl seeking for a man to validate my vanity. Lord, thank You for showing me this negative side of me. Now, Father transform me. Help me become the opposite Lord.

Lord, may I serve all the men that I have in my life regardless of my relationship with them in a brotherly and godly way. That I may be able to serve them accordingly and next time I would meet someone, may I treat that guy like my friend or brother only, not a groom prospect.

Lord, I may have lost him but then his presence helped me see things on a clearer plane. Something must have been really wrong with the way I presented myself. Next time around, I will do better and I will know what to do.

Lord, may my season of singleness become a blessing not only to my family but to others as well. May I not be so badly affected by the pressures and everything that has something to do with my age and my biological clock. Lord, You are the Author of time and if You would give me children, even if I am 45 already, I will have.

Lord, this is a purifying stage for me. Thank You Lord. Amen.