Educating Myself and Being Unsupported

I am having this bugging thought inside my head. I am just quite discouraged for while not stopping me nor preventing me from taking up my Master's degree, I am just sad that my father does not really value education that much. He is actually more into making more money and just simply getting loads of it.

My mother, thankfully she supports me in her own special ways but unfortunately, I cannot fully engage her in intellectual conversations that have something to do with anything I have learned from school or from a book. Not that she does not like it but maybe because she has other and more important concerns to think about than my cerebral rantings.

I have always loved reading and I thank my mom for introducing me to the world of words. She made me read books beyond my years during my early age. She taught me how to read and write and bought me lots of storybooks for me to devour each time I would have my free time. I remember spending lots of time in our school library just reading and reading and I would even go home late much to her chagrin just because I lost myself to a a world I could only find in books.

I was not really a diligent student. I would oftentimes skip class and would even be absent just to simply fool around and give sleeping more time. I was the typical lazy student, practically a "thorn" in my teachers' flesh. But I love reading. I really do. To compensate for the absences I incurred, I would just read at home or anywhere any printed material my eyes and hand laid on.

Now that I am older, I have realized already the value of studying. The beauty of and in it. I wish I were a better student in the past but of course I could never go back in time. Yet, I am happy that I am blessed and given the chance to pursue further studies for my intellectual and career advancement.

Which of course will go back to the support that my family gives me. They do not stop me but they do not specially my father value studying the way that I do now. He thinks that I should just stop going to the university and just apply for a working visa going abroad to of course work and earn huge amount of money. But it is not my priority. It is not even in my thoughts nowadays anymore. I still want to go abroad but not for the reason of earning money but to earn more knowledge.

I cannot insist on my dad my values anymore. He has his own set of beliefs and I have developed a set of mine over time. Maybe before, we had similar mindsets but time has transformed my heart and mind. It is taking a different path already. One that God has ordained me.

I feel better now. Now that I have already let out my feelings. I am just sad that my father thinks this way but it is okay. We are different. He is also from a different time and was raised differently just like me. And our differences paradoxically make us just the same.

Anyway, I will just eat my dinner, move around then read again later. Hehehehe...(^^,)