Feeling the Jitters

I am going to meet him tonight.

I am nervous. Indeed, I am. But I can't help it. I will see him for the last time. I will see his face.

I am going to give him some of my books. Thank God, I was given those ideas. I am nervous. My goodness! No one is here to calm and soothe me. I cannot even concentrate on the work that I am supposed to be doing.

Lord, please calm my nerves. Lord, please. Please soothe my spirit. I am really nervous now. It is not as if we are going to do something bad, it is just that I think I find this dangerous and exciting. Risky and romantic. I feel like I am Juliet. Hehehehehe...

I wish he would arrive now. I am so nervous. M
Yet, I am not going to hope for anything. After tonight, then I will move on with my life. I will do what I am asked and supposed to do. But this is just so exciting. This is the first time I have ever felt this kind of jitters, this nervousness, this swinging and banging and exploding of my nerves. I want to shout. I want to laugh.

He is not yet here. I wish he were here now. I wish he were here. Anyway, even if they are already here, I will still go outside. I will still talk to him. I will still see him regardless of what they would say or think.

I will just amuse myself by listening to music and writing here. I will just enjoy the "torture" that I am presently feeling right now. I think my head and my breast will explode. My goodness!!!! (^^,)