Disillusioned

I am disillusioned.

I am tired of hoping. Enough. I will not wait anymore. I will just move on and go on with my life. I will open up my world. I will let others in again.

I am disillusioned. I will stop. I will be the girl that I was before I met him. My! It was only a short time and what an impact he was to me.

No, this is not fair. I am not being kind to myself. I love myself more. I will take good care of myself, I will respect myself and will be so kind to me. No, not to the point of narcissism but just enough to maintain the dignity that I have. And to live the way God wants me to.

Enough. I am to be respected, loved and valued. If one cannot give that to me, if one makes me feel so bad about myself, I have no choice but to eliminate that person in my life.

Enough. I am so tired already. Really tired. Dead tired. All I want is to live peacefully again, without anyone to think about or to be concerned about.

I will just move on and get on with my life.