A Letter Of Good Riddance

Dear you, yes you who don't really care about me,

Yes, I have been such a fool thinking that you were interested in me too. That somehow, I mean something to you. Now, I really feel like a fool, my heart's been bruised by you so badly though you did not mean it. I was the only fool here between the two of us.

Yes, I fell in love with you, there's no denying to that. I fell madly, head-over-heels in love with you and that was one of the worst things that ever happened to my life.

I wish I had not met you anymore. I wish you had never become a part of my life anymore. If only I could turn back the hands of time, I would not have gone outside, talk to our common friend and also gone along with her matchmaking skills. I wish that my life were just like before, the time when I had no idea of your existence.

No, I will not be the one at the losing end here. I will choose to be okay and will go on improving everything about me. Anyway, everything has a reason and meeting you gave me a good reason to improve myself and become the real and better me, with or without you.

Now that the year is almost coming to an end, I am not including you anymore in it. Even if I have to alienate the people that I met because of you, even if I have to avoid them at all cost.

You will not belong in my year 2012 anymore. Upon your return, well, I just hope that you will have a good life and I will just quietly and happily live mine. No, I am not making you a part of my life anymore. You belong to my yesterday so I am leaving you there now. I will face my present with a big smile on my face and yes, I am not letting you affect me that much anymore.

I am still hurting. Yes, I am still in pain. But I choose not to dwell on this anymore. I am moving on. I hope that you will not contact nor text me anymore. I will not care for you anymore. I will still pray for you for that was my promise but that will be it. No more, no less.

I just pray that when you return here, all my feelings for you will be gone by then. So if ever our paths will cross again then I can face you with a sincere smile and a nonchalant nod.

I know, I will be okay. God is with me. Maybe this is His way of telling me to let you go fully. Take you away from my mind, from my thoughts.

I will heal. I will be okay. I will be fine. And I am letting you go. For real. You don't belong with me, you were never meant to stay in my life permanently. Anyway, thanks a lot for those short-lived memories that you gave me. Though maybe I was the only who really felt happy and enjoyed those moments at the time.

Goodbye.

Blessy