Anxiety Attacked Again

I already told our common friend about it. Well, not all but the summary and gist of what I received yesterday. Of course, she said that it was how he called that girl. It has a different meaning for me.

I just felt that probably, they are not really on my side. How could I even think that way in the first place? I have been so assuming so I will better stop all this nonsense.

I am distancing myself from them. I am really going to just move on with my life and have nothing to do with them. It is so sad it has to end this way but I guess, it is just better this way. I will stop and I have already stopped.

Our common friend told me that I go to their house. What for? To make a fool out of myself again? Am I asking for an explanation? No I am not. I am just letting her know and that's all.

You know what I feel and think now? The heck with them! I am just going to mind my own business now, move on with my life and avoid them at all cost. Besides, I do not need anything from them. Never once did I ask for a favor from them, let alone disturb them. So there's nothing for me to feel and be guilty about.

Now I have learned to really be careful with the people that I will let inside my heart and life. To avoid further heartaches and pain. I have indeed learned my lessons. Better to have a few, real and dependable ones than to have many but superficial ones.

I will be polite with them but that will be all. I am tired already. That fateful day in October has already caused me too much heartache and cost me a lot of tears. There is always a time for everything and now is the time for me to totally give up and let go of every stupidities and false beliefs that I have inside my mind.

I am not a person to be messed around with. I respect myself and I have my dignity. He is not enough for me to lose even just a gram of it.

I will just go on. That's all. And avoid all of them at all cost.