Last Act of "Change"

I changed my sim card again. For nth time, I did. I hope this would really be the last time and that this would last.

I hate myself. I hate myself for waiting for him, for thinking that there was something that was going on with him too. I was stupid that I got so emotional about him. All I want to do is really cry. Curl up in my room and cry.

I just hope and pray that this tempest will soon be over. That I will get over him. I don't want to go through this ordeal again. I am so badly wounded already. Really, I am. All I want to do is just sleep.

I still have tons of things to do. I have been so distracted. I am so tired already. Really I am. All I want to do is just simply take a rest.