Mother Knows Best

I am sad now but I guess this helped me put myself back into reality.

My mom and I talked about him. She told me to control my feelings and use my brains more for me to not get hurt in the end.

I was just too happy. I was just too overjoyed because he texted me again. I did not even see that there were also red flags. If he really were interested as I assumed him to be, why only texting me? Why not call me?

He even joked that I be the one to call him. Why did he even suggest that albeit jokingly? Maybe he sensed that I care for him more than he does to me?

Probably, I am only a past time. One he could just text if there is any convenient time. One he could just stop talking to when things get so busy and he does not have any spare to use. Maybe I was just his "anti-boredom."

I guess, that simple talk with my mom was God's way to put me back into reality. I was just so excited and probably so in love that I overlooked or tried to overlook those things. I guess, I will just have to keep my heart open for other possibilities.

I am hurt. But I guess, I need the truth to be slapped at my face. I need reality to bang my heart forcefully again. For me to get the real and proper and factual perspective of things.

Honestly, I feel tired falling in love now. It's as if life is just toying with my feelings. I will just get on with my life and live the way that I should be. For now, all I need to focus on are my projects and my dirty laundry.