Good Thing I Am Busy

Yes...being busy and doing lots of things are indeed very beneficial though can be so tiring at times.
I don't have the time, mental capacity nor the feelings to even feel sad. You see, there have been lots of changes happening around me and they are really unsettling. Just like last night, I don't know if he was really serious but Sir Uly told me that he already resigned and that he was already accepted to work in a university. It was sad and would give me so much discomfort for aside from being a normal "fixture" there, one I am already used to seeing on a daily basis, he is also somewhat special to me. I mean special in a non-romantic way. I just like him, I am so fond of him, he is like an older brother. I just admire him a lot. Without him, nobody would "irritate" me anymore and act like a brat to me. I would surely miss him if what he told me were true. But just like what he said, "people come, people go." It was easy for him to say those words but to live and act upon them is another thing. And a harder one at that.
I guess, I have given too much of my heart to those people I did not intend to have any connection with in the first place. My only goal there when I applied a year ago was to work and work and save money and then go back to Manila. I did not expect that I would be this "attached" to them, that I could get this close. And now deep inside amid my being swamped, I am feeling this deep pang of sadness.
Yet, life goes on. And I must not lose the vision and mission I had with me when I started working there in the first place. I told you, to leave is even better than being left behind. And for these past few months, I have been like an "abandoned" child left alone to roam around streets I am not familiar with. But I have to stop acting like a pathetic child and be a stronger adult in times like this. This is not going to be easy but at least I know that Up There, I am still guided.
I will continue what I am doing now. I am already done with my lesson plans for the coming week.Technically, I am a week advanced and I intend to do things that way. I don't want to cram anymore specially that next year I am leaving. I am excited about it at the same time nervous. But I think it's high time that I learn to take care and tend to myself. I am already a big girl. It's time to "free" myself from my parents' wings.
Hah! Life is really, how should I say? Complicated? Not really. Let's say so constantly changing that it leaves you dumbfounded sometimes. But that's the way life is...What we can do is just learn to accept and embrace it as it goes.

Just Finished

I was so busy today. I only stayed inside my classroom finishing my bulletin board decorations. It was a good thing that I only had to recycle the ones that I used last school year. My classroom is almost done. I only need to finish the other board and it is going to be easy for it is only very small.
I am thinking of my salary today. I had my first one for this school year and I could say that with all the debts that I had incurred during the vacation months( caused by prior poor financial management skills and lack of discipline in spending) I could say that I cannot fully enjoy the first fruit of my labor. It was my fault actually and I am not going to be that idiotic again not to save enough for future use. Specially next year that I will be going back to Quezon City and try it on my own. I will be wiser this time in handling my finances. It really helps to have the list of the things to buy so as not to be "sidetracked" by those tempting stuffs we can find in a grocery store.
Back to my classroom. My bulletin board is colorful, thanks for the help and constructive criticisms given me by my friends and colleagues. I am proud of it though I must admit that the other teachers' bulletin boards look even better and organize. But it is okay. At least,I was able to give it a fairly good shot though not really my very best. If only I had ink for our printer then it would have been more beautiful, colorful and more creatively funky. Without losing that childlike appeal of course.
Anyway, I am still quite not feeling good. You see, I and Eloisa, my co-teacher is not in speaking terms. She was a good person but she could be so taxing and stressful sometimes. I honestly just opted to avoid her so as not to harbor and keep more ill-feelings towards her. I do not know. I just want to have my so-called relatively peaceful existence in my school albeit the negativities surrounding me.
At least,I have my own circle of friends and I intend to keep them.
This has been a day. I was able to upload most of the photos I took when we went outing last Monday in Batangas. I had fun, I enjoyed the place very mush though I did not swim a lot. I do not know how to swim and being the chronically paranoid me, I just stayed for a few minutes in the water and did not go beyond the "line" dividing the shallowest part to the deeper and deepest. Anyway, there is always next time. And by that time, I will have brought my life vest for protection.(^^,)