My Day Today

I went to church with my family. I saw my crush there, my sister saw hers but she was luckier than me. Her crush knows her by name, mine does not even know that I exist. Or if he does, he does not care.
Anyway, that's life. I just looked at and semi-stared at him from a distance. That guy is quite old already and I could almost see his "balding" spot. But he is still cute and yes, intelligent.
He is a doctor. Before, my limerance was for a crazy wannabe lawyer and now my eyes have riveted to that doctor.
Still, both of them seem like my impossible dreams.
The lawyer has his girlfriend now and the doctor, well he belongs to a different world.I guess, I could only admire and crush on him from a distance.
Enough of my ever fruitless lovelife. My mother and I went to Riverbanks and I felt happy. I was able to go there again after more than a year. It always feels so nice to go back there and just feel that "old" place. I missed it so much. The whole Marikina and yes, San Mateo. Next Saturday is our high school reunion and I am not missing it for the world.
I had fun today though when I got home, I was really sleepy and tired. The wandering has taken its toll on me. But it was worth it. It gave me that "homey" feeling though it's not my home anymore. I just missed that place so much. That is.
Tomorrow is going to be another day. I will be productive and do lots of stuffs. I hate cramming now though at times it helps me become more alive, alert,awake and enthusiastic. But it is always still better being prepared and ready when doing things. I will smile tomorrow, be positive and keep this happy and free spirit within me...(^^,)

The Writing Spirit

My writing spirit has captured me again.

I just want to write stuffs right now though I really cannot think of any idea. I just want to type words that are forming inside my mind.

We are going to church today. Last week we were not able to for my mom and my sister had their bouts of diarrhea. So I also got lazy and yes, I did not go to church which of course was not a good thing to do. That's why I felt quite empty this week that passed. Now, may this day become a blessing for we are going there as a family.

I already gave up my own church. That used to be the family's church but because of some major changes in our lives before, we just opted to go to a nearer church. Since my brothers and sister practically grew up in their church there in QC, they still attend there albeit the far distance. Anyway,we already have the MRT and on Sundays, traffic jams are minimal.

I am now also attending that church. I also attended it before but I went back to my old one. Still, changes happened so I just went with my family. Besides, I guess this is the better way for me to do for I get to be with them and somehow bond with them. On weekdays, I almost "live" my own life already so Sundays are for and with my folks and younger dudes. Besides, I enjoy it a lot.

I also get to visit the place we used to live in. It is not really the location per se, but near to it. Thing is, I do not get to be so attached to this place where I am now for I have somewhere I could always look forward and go back to.I do not get lost, I keep this vision that someday I will be walking those streets and avenues again.

Anyway, I guess I have to give this writing spirit a halt now. I am still preparing myself and I am to fix the things I will bring.Later on, I may have lots of things to share with you. Things I will see, feel and experience. I just cannot let this surging writing adrenalin be suppressed. To keep my train of thoughts moving and words free flowing...

Later...

On Horror Stories and Traffic Jams

Well, I was caught in traffic today as I was on my way home.
My other co-teachers were with me and we were so bored that we started to share some stories about our lives.
Suddenly, I opened up that weird thing that happened to us last Tuesday. We were in the fifth floor when suddenly the door of that room opened. Our boss actually closed it and maybe, he closed it carefully. Then all of a sudden, it opened again. I thought it was only the wind so I gave it the benefit of the doubt. Still, my co-teacher told me that the knob actually clicked and opened by itself. I was feeling a bit scared already but maintained my skeptic stand. After an hour or so, our other co-teachers went down so it was only the three of us. Our other boss and my friend. We were talking and minutes already passed by when suddenly the door opened by itself again and I actually heard it clicked. I was already let's say, 85% scared and believing it but the other 15% wanted to really be sure. So I went to the door, closed and opened it. Just to test maybe it was only the wind or they just loosely closed it. But seeing the condition of the door and actually closing it, I was able to prove that it was not the wind neither loosely closed. It was really "something" and there was really "something."
It was indeed creepy because for one, it was my first time to experience that. Yes, I have been hearing stories and they really scared the wits out of me but those tales were forgettable as compared to this one. I actually heard it and almost saw it.
Now, what about the traffic? Yes, going back to that traffic on my way today which is by the way an everyday "normal" happening here in Cavite, because of boredom and nothing interesting to talk about to while away time, I started telling them my eccentric tale and that was the start of another creepy, storytelling session. They also shared their own experiences and man, they even had hair raising stories. I do not want to share here anymore but to conclude these horrific stuffs, that place is really an eery and creepy place. Bad spirits do lurk around so it needs serious prayers.
Because of that traffic, that place became a scarier place for me than ever before. Figuratively and literally. But I do not want to talk about them anymore. The devils might think they are that important for us to talk about them most of the time. In my case, I just need to let this out for I cannot seem to get over that terrible experience so I am writing about it now. Later on, I will be over this.Hehehe

A Little Bit of Things

Well, I had a day today. We had a seminar and so far I learned lots of things. I promised myself that I would be doing better this year and I would take my job seriously.
Then again, enough of my chatter about my job. I am listening to a song right now. A very nice rendition of my favorite OPM song by Regine Velasquez. This song was sung by Sarah Geronimo in her telenovela roughly three years ago. I just fell in love with this version when I first heard this last night. So touching and heart-rendering rendition.Wish I had someone who I could give this song to. I really love her version.
To tell that someone that I have been dreaming of loving him and being with him. I really want to experience again that sweet feeling of falling in love and and just be so romantically poetic about someone. Who could he be and what could his name be?
I wish I were in love now...But there's no one who I could think and see as worthy of my very fragile heart...(^^,)

"Bitchy" Day

Today, I had my bitchy moments.

Well, on my way home, I had this argument with a jeepney driver about the fare he was asking us. It was supposed to be 8 pesos only but he insisted it was 9. Of course, I reacted because I have been going to and fro from my house to school and vice -versa and he was one of the jackass few who asked for more. Not that 1 peso was a big deal to me, only I was reminding him and asking for my rights as a commuter. He insisted but I also argued. In the end, my friend just relented and I wanted to cuss at him and knock him down. And that other old man who also insisted that it was 9 pesos. As if I was talking to him. I wanted to tell him to shut up but I just controlled myself for I did not want to stoop down to their level. But I was so irritated, I wanted to punch them both.

Anyway, enough of my bitchiness. I had a good time with my department, my new co-teachers were nice and I hope that they would remain to be until the year ends. Besides, I have already started to loosen up and open up to them. Of course, I cannot compare the peers that I had before for they were a different bunch. All I wanted to do now is just to have a good working relationship with them and finish this year with a good mark.

So far, the day was relatively okay though there were some mishaps just like what happened to me in that jeep. But generally, the day was good and I am somehow enjoying my time now bit by bit.

I will just keep and maintain this positive and happy spirit within me. As well as my open and resilient mind. I know, there will be setbacks along the way but the point is, everything will just turn out fine.

I prayed again this morning.I resumed with my morning devotions with God and it somehow refreshed my tired soul. I think, I will have another later before I sleep.

Enough of this for now. I will still read and study some stuffs. I will also continue my "chat" with John Steinbeck. The day will not come to an end for me without leafing through and reading my book. (^^,)

I Will Stop Now or Else...

I think, I will just have to stop my writings now.

I have been glued here on my chair for almost the whole day already and ironically, I am already feeling "fatigued."

I guess, I am just making most of my time doing all these writing and reading stuffs for come June things will not be the same again. With regard to how I use my time, that is.

Tomorrow is going to be just another day. Another day to be with those people who I am going to spend a significant amount of my time with for the coming months. I guess, though I have some troubling thoughts in my mind as to how this school year would turn out, still I will have to keep in my mind the same mettle and positive, free and happy spirit that I had last year. In fact, I always have it within me only I tend to forget sometimes.

I will adjust again to another set of people. As in again. And I have noticed that these past three years of my life, I have been so constantly exposed to "adjustment periods." I hope this would stop soon.

I still have lots of idea coming in my mind that I need to let out. I will study and write and do better with my crafts. I have started "vocalizing" in the restroom again so as not for me to lose my knack for music. Of course, I read on a daily basis and later I have a tete-a-tete with John Steinbeck. Before I start my winning moments with Jane Austen and Lucy Montgomery again.

I really love books and reading. Of course, one cannot exist without the other. I have a dream. A dream not as profound as Mr. King's but useful in my own little way. I will have my own library and a very intelligent and smart collection of books. I just love them so much. Even the sensation of paper as I run my fingers on one never fails to excite me. And the scent. I have always loved the scent of a bookstore, be it a first hand or second hand one.

Given the space of our house right now, I cannot do a Maria Ressa or Fidel Ramos as regards my own library nook. But in time. When I have my own house. I will have a special place built there just for that sublime and noble purpose.

Anyway, enough of my chatters now. By the way, if you think I already forgot my love for photography, you're dead wrong. I am still in love with pictures though I must delay my gratification for that another special passion of mine. I will still have to save for a good camera though not yet a DSLR. It is expensive and given the undertakings I will have next year, owning one is not yet in my agenda in a year or two's time.

Halt now, my mind! I still have chores to do and I feel hot because of our searing summer season. I will move now!!!

Bye!!!

Looking forward to watching this wonderful musical in August. I am so excited to hear and see our very own Lea Salonga singing that lovely song "Memory" as she dons her Grizzabella role...(^^,)

Thought I Lost This

My goodness!!!

I thought I lost this site of mine already. To think that I was not able to open this for more than two years already. I read again some of my entries here and man! Were they about that person I liked so much well, in that time period.

I guess, I still like him until now though I had a not-so-good experience with him last December when I invited him on Facebook. He approved me at first but then suddenly just erased me. I guess it was all about that picture of him I posted there in my account professing for all the world to see how much I "loved" him.Maybe he did not find it amusing so he deleted me.

Anyway, I had good memories of him though so I would rather just remember him in a good way. I still find him cute and he's still lovable in my eyes.

I guess, I will have to maintain this one again same as with my other blog sites. I guess this one will be somehow for all the world to see. So there would be lots of censures in here...hehehe

Later, I will write stuff again...Influx of words in my head just don't stop so I am making the most out of it...(^^,)